Tag: anxiety
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Unearthing Stardust
A reflection on ancient things, a duck, and a grief eleven years unspoken This post contains affiliate links. See my full disclosure on my Resources page. “We are stardust, we are golden.” — Joni Mitchell Yesterday I was sharpening my small axe when something moved through my hands that didn’t feel like mine alone. As…
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She Came Back
A reflection on abandonment, the inner child, and what the body knows (This post contains affiliate links. See my full disclosure on my Resources page.) “My body shrank from being an adult into a child, right there in the pool.” I painted her in February 2025. A little girl, maybe seven or eight years old.…
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The Shadow I Couldn’t Stand to See
A reflection on shadow work, the mirror of projection, and a little girl who wasn’t allowed to ask for a glass of water. (This post contains affiliate links. See my full disclosure on my Resources page.) “Everything that irritates us about others can lead us to an understanding of ourselves.” — Carl Jung The People…
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They Told Me My Body Was the Problem
A reflection on purity culture, body shame, and what it cost me to exist in a female body (This post contains affiliate links. See my full disclosure on my Resources page.) “Your body is not an apology.” — Sonya Renee Taylor I was twenty years old, kneeling at a church pew in a long skirt,…
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Exploring Meditation and Self-Forgiveness: Healing Through Imaginative Reflection
“The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched—they must be felt with the heart.” – Hellen Keller I slept well last night, and sometimes, it feels like winning the lottery to wake up with energy and feel restored and refreshed. I feel even and quiet, like a calm…
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The Purge and PTSD.
“Delusional pain hurts just as much as pain from actual trauma. So what if it’s all in your head?” – Tracy Morgan Tonight I watched the movie “The First Purge”. It’s a story of a ‘new’ type of American government scheme to solve the social problems of poverty and other issues. It’s really fucked up…
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Father Wounds.
“So much of what we learn about love is taught by people who never really loved us.” – r.h. Sin I watched the movie “The Shack” on Netflix for the second time. I weep when I watch this. The main character, Mac, is in a car accident on his way to possibly confront his young…
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I Want to Heal.
I want to heal from my traumas and hurts and pains. I want a brighter tomorrow to feel more whole, more MYSELF, and more integrated instead of feeling like a Picasso painting with so many breaks and cracks in my personality and mind. It is painful and difficult as past traumas and memories come up.…
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Happy New Year, 2022.
This has been a year of a lot of change internally for me. A time of growth. A time of shedding layers of my ego to reveal and relish who I really am inside. It has been freeing, liberating, scary, terrifying in some moments, but I would not change a single thing. A year ago…
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