Tag: depression
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She Came Back
A reflection on abandonment, the inner child, and what the body knows (This post contains affiliate links. See my full disclosure on my Resources page.) “My body shrank from being an adult into a child, right there in the pool.” I painted her in February 2025. A little girl, maybe seven or eight years old.…
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The Shadow I Couldn’t Stand to See
A reflection on shadow work, the mirror of projection, and a little girl who wasn’t allowed to ask for a glass of water. (This post contains affiliate links. See my full disclosure on my Resources page.) “Everything that irritates us about others can lead us to an understanding of ourselves.” — Carl Jung The People…
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The Man Who Held Me Up.
A reflection on the first person who ever saw me. (This post contains affiliate links. See my full disclosure on my Resources page.) “Where no one else looks, love finds a way.” — Unknown A Name I Hadn’t Heard in Thirty Years. I’ve been writing again. Publishing again. Putting the messy, honest, unfinished parts of my…
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They Told Me My Body Was the Problem
A reflection on purity culture, body shame, and what it cost me to exist in a female body (This post contains affiliate links. See my full disclosure on my Resources page.) “Your body is not an apology.” — Sonya Renee Taylor I was twenty years old, kneeling at a church pew in a long skirt,…
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Exploring Meditation and Self-Forgiveness: Healing Through Imaginative Reflection
“The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched—they must be felt with the heart.” – Hellen Keller I slept well last night, and sometimes, it feels like winning the lottery to wake up with energy and feel restored and refreshed. I feel even and quiet, like a calm…
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Hope in a Pill.
“Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow. The important thing is not to stop questioning.” –Albert Einstein I started taking Zoloft. My therapist listened to me describe symptoms of what she said sounded like panic attacks: pounding heart, sweaty palms, shallow breathing, a tightness in my chest, feeling completely out of control and…
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It all feels meaningless.
“Life has no meaning the moment you lose the fantasy of being eternal.” -Jean-Paul Sartre I feel fucking overwhelmed by the smallest fucking things right now. The dirt on the floor in my house. The lack of space for myself. My dusty and unfinished artwork that sits in the corner of the living room. Me…
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The Glass Caterpillar.
A Healing Dream can never be completely “interpreted,” or fully understood. Healing Dreams want us to stop making sense; not just to crack the case, but to enter the mystery. – Marc Ian Barasch I feel like I am in the darkest of depths some days. Like I am underwater and it is gray, green,…
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The Pain in the Process
I feel as if I am coming apart today. I feel like my arms and legs are disconnected from my body and my insides are turned around. I feel completely and utterly and inexplicably drained of energy, emotionally, and physically. These pains, these memories, these old traumatic events and nightmares that haunt me – they…
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Understanding of Freedom and Choice.
Every human has four endowments – self-awareness, conscience, independent will, and creative imagination. These give us the ultimate human freedom… The power to choose, to respond, to change. – Stephen Covey I’ve struggled emotionally in the past couple of months to feel anything but brooding darkness, even on the sunniest of California days, and a…
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