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We Are Free Now
“The most courageous act is still to think for yourself. Aloud.” — Coco Chanel A reflection on safety, indoctrination, and the long road back to trusting yourself. I started today with Day 2 of Lisa Romano’s inner child journaling guide. The theme was simple and devastating in equal measure: Sense of Safety. The prompt asked…
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The Wound Beneath Everything
“The wound is the place where the Light enters you.” — Rumi A reflection on finally letting myself feel what I’ve been carrying. I started this morning with coffee, my cat Nacho curled up warm on my lap, and two journaling guides I’ve been meaning to work through. I didn’t know I was about to…
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Exploring Meditation and Self-Forgiveness: Healing Through Imaginative Reflection
“The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched—they must be felt with the heart.” – Hellen Keller I slept well last night, and sometimes, it feels like winning the lottery to wake up with energy and feel restored and refreshed. I feel even and quiet, like a calm…
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Ego trips.
It’s been more than a year since I’ve written a post for this space. I write extensively in my journal every day so I have plenty to say and share. It’s not for lack of content. It’s fear and pain and my hard-working ego trying to keep me safe from re-experiencing past traumas. I let…
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Connecting with Nature.
“Just living is not enough. One must have sunshine, freedom, and a little flower.” – Hans Christian Andersen A year ago I sold my gorgeous home in the suburbs to live in an old 1970’s mobile home on a 5-acre plot of land in the mountains. It has been one of the best decisions I…
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Hope in a Pill.
“Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow. The important thing is not to stop questioning.” –Albert Einstein I started taking Zoloft. My therapist listened to me describe symptoms of what she said sounded like panic attacks: pounding heart, sweaty palms, shallow breathing, a tightness in my chest, feeling completely out of control and…
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It all feels meaningless.
“Life has no meaning the moment you lose the fantasy of being eternal.” -Jean-Paul Sartre I feel fucking overwhelmed by the smallest fucking things right now. The dirt on the floor in my house. The lack of space for myself. My dusty and unfinished artwork that sits in the corner of the living room. Me…
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Dismantling Myself and Continuing My Healing Journey.
All healing starts with beginning to accept yourself and love yourself; even your flaws. – Bryant McGill I woke up with my neck and back stiff again and my head hurting. I am so inflamed that everything hurts. I think it was the way I slept and also smoking weed before bed makes my head…
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The Purge and PTSD.
“Delusional pain hurts just as much as pain from actual trauma. So what if it’s all in your head?” – Tracy Morgan Tonight I watched the movie “The First Purge”. It’s a story of a ‘new’ type of American government scheme to solve the social problems of poverty and other issues. It’s really fucked up…
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