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The Glass Caterpillar.
A Healing Dream can never be completely “interpreted,” or fully understood. Healing Dreams want us to stop making sense; not just to crack the case, but to enter the mystery. – Marc Ian Barasch I feel like I am in the darkest of depths some days. Like I am underwater and it is gray, green,…
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Father Wounds.
“So much of what we learn about love is taught by people who never really loved us.” – r.h. Sin I watched the movie “The Shack” on Netflix for the second time. I weep when I watch this. The main character, Mac, is in a car accident on his way to possibly confront his young…
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The Pain in the Process
I feel as if I am coming apart today. I feel like my arms and legs are disconnected from my body and my insides are turned around. I feel completely and utterly and inexplicably drained of energy, emotionally, and physically. These pains, these memories, these old traumatic events and nightmares that haunt me – they…
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Hair, Shame, Judgement, and Power.
I shaved my head for the second time today. The first time I shaved it about a month ago, I felt angry, overcome with emotions from some past trauma with my childhood that I was revisiting. I shaved it in tears, not fully understanding the sensations of feelings that were flooding me. Today, I did it…
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I Want to Heal.
I want to heal from my traumas and hurts and pains. I want a brighter tomorrow to feel more whole, more MYSELF, and more integrated instead of feeling like a Picasso painting with so many breaks and cracks in my personality and mind. It is painful and difficult as past traumas and memories come up.…
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Understanding of Freedom and Choice.
Every human has four endowments – self-awareness, conscience, independent will, and creative imagination. These give us the ultimate human freedom… The power to choose, to respond, to change. – Stephen Covey I’ve struggled emotionally in the past couple of months to feel anything but brooding darkness, even on the sunniest of California days, and a…
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Happy New Year, 2022.
This has been a year of a lot of change internally for me. A time of growth. A time of shedding layers of my ego to reveal and relish who I really am inside. It has been freeing, liberating, scary, terrifying in some moments, but I would not change a single thing. A year ago…
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Merry Christmas 2021.
Merry Christmas my fellow human. There is so much to say, so much to share. This has been a year of transformation and change for me. I feel like this is a beginning and an end. Some days, like yesterday, I am barely able to get up and function and be around others. My thoughts…
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